Real not reel.
Sanity exploded.
C for emath again, damn. Miss Yeo was telling me that I only have one math :( But it beats others who fail emath and amath at the same time. I am going to work harder like really. For chemistry too. Sigh, 10 points.
I was nearly drove insane today. I was forced to talk to someone I really didn’t want to. But in the end, it seems like no one can force me to do something I don’t want to. It made me believe even more that your life is very much dependent on choices and decisions you make. Your future is determined by the crossroads you take right now so I don’t want to make decisions I’ll regret. My principle of life is very simple, to try my best not regret anything that I do and to make life sweet rather than bitter for myself. I can’t bring myself to talk to people I dislike, sorry.. the fact is, if like I really don’t like someone I won’t even be able to look at the person in the eye. I am quite lousy I know but I don’t want my life to be like a drama, to force myself to do something I don’t want, to act like I like someone I don’t. I don’t want my life to be like that. I don’t need a lot of acquaintances, I just need a few genuine good friends. Actually I am comfortable as things are right now.. :)
The incident today made me ponder a lot more than I usually do. I would like to send a really sincere apology to that person but I hope you understand that there are things in life you can’t force it. I can get over some things like in a matter of just hours but sometimes I need slightly longer window period… if I talk to you today, it wouldn’t be from my heart and I will feel guilty about it. Had you known that it was not sincere, even if we made up, it would just be so fake and hypocritical. So I’m sorry anyway.
Sometimes I just think too much but that’s the only thing keeps my brain active. Singapore’s education is too rigid.
